As One Door Closes . . .

Little Egret – Horseshoe Point

That’s it. The scramble to write a post a day and beat last year’s publication record for publication, is now over.  I have thrown in the towel and will now blog when I feel like it. ironically, I may feel more like it when I remove the target I set myself.  It was OK when I was keeping up and missing one or two, which were easily caught up. Once I got a week behind, and more to the point, did so without noticing, it was till within my capabilities, but I found I wasn’t particularly bothered.

The same goes for the numismatic writing. I let it lapse about a month ago and so far nobody even seems to have noticed that the Facebook page has had nothing new on it. This was just a pause due to the wedding, but as it went on I realised that I felt more relaxed. And when I realised that nobody had noticed, I realised that it didn’t matter. I started doing it to back the efforts of the member who set the page up, and tried to enlist the support of several other members, but none of them stepped forward to help. Eventually someone, who never raises a finger to help others within the society, will mention that it’s a shame we stopped doing it. I could illustrate that simple remark with many examples, but I won’t.

The poetry is still going OK. This morning I wrote one that I feel happy with and I have had two acceptances this week. It’s difficult to say where i am compared to this time last year because of the problem of defining “this time”. I’m close to my results for the first six months of last year, with one or two results still pending. I may well be exactly on target, but as I had a couple of disappointing results early on it’s a bit borderline.  All I can do is keep trying. I’ve made 53 submissions this year compared to 45 last year, so I’ve been putting the work in, even if the success rate is down. This isn’t necessarily due to writing badly, I’m just trying new places and it can be tricky. However, it is good for me to make things harder.

Little Egret

Philip Larkin and Moral Judgement

He looks a bit like Eric Morecambe in some of his photos – which is probably not a good comparison.

I wrote this after watching a YouTube clip of Philip Larkin riding a bicycle. I can’t exactly remember what he was doing but association with An Arundel Tomb has always made me think he was visiting churches, even though I’m not convinced that a church features in the clip. It started out as a longer piece and I pruned it and polished it every time it came back, which was often. I think it was sent out at least four times. On the last occasion I didn’t, as i recall, do anything, as i couldn’t think of anything else to do so I just sent it straight out again and, a day later, it was accepted.

This is an example of how editors all have different views and requirements.

Meanwhile, although I have used it on the blog before, I use it here to illustrate the making of moral judgements. Larkin, you see, was a racist according to his letters. That illustrates several points, such as whether we should judge poetry through a filter of our own morality. Just because he was a racist does that make him a bad poet? And if we do decided to judge a writer by his morals rather than his writing, is it fair to judge one as a racist because he preserved his correspondence, yet to make no judgement on another writer who may have failed to preserve his correspondence?

That’s a tricky thing about making moral judgements, they aren’t always accurate – a bit like the poem, which picks and choses which facts to use. I didn’t use moral judgements in selecting the facts, just what fitted nicely into the flow.

Hidden Worlds

He wears a grey gaberdine and rides a bicycle from church to church. In his head he composes poems about sex and tombs. On YouTube he flickers in black and white, like a newsreel from the 1950s. Smiles are clearly still on ration.

Larkin used more bad language than you normally expect from a librarian. This becomes understandable when you find that he started his day with half a bottle of sherry.

monochrome photo
my parents younger than me
1963

Failed Haiku Feb 2021

 

Finding Myself Lacking

Swan at National Arboretum

I just did a count, and found that as of yesterday I had written 174 posts this year. Unfortunately, as yesterday was day 181 of 2026, this means i was seven posts behind on my target. This was very annoying as, until four weeks ago, I was on target.

My first thought was that I should write like crazy and get the seven made up so I could sign off with an average one a day, as I had said. But it would take me at least two days, which would effectively still leave me short of the target and mean I had to write for at least another day, and leave my target at one a day, but for six months and three days.

Whooper Swans on farmland near Frampton Marsh. Note the straight necks and yellow/black bills.

On the other hand, tomorrow will be day 183 of the year, and thus halfway through. I could, at the risk of looking like some sort of single-minded maniac, write nine posts in two days and achieve a nice neat record of one post a day for the first half of the year. It is an elegant and balanced solution, albeit from a man who is looking steadily less well-balanced as this post goes on.

This is a worry, not because I failed in my self-selected target, or even because I can’t do a simple thing like writing 250 words a day, but because I can’t accept it and have to manufacture a tidy end.

This is a bit too much like my Dad, who started to constrain his days and his trips out with the need to fit in with self-induced set mealtimes.

For now, this will do, but I will be back later with more posts. Or a reflection on mania. I am not sure which.

Mute Swan, Lapwings and Black Headed Gull

 

Poetry and Morality?

Don’t get excited, despite the title it isn’t a newly discovered Jane Austen novel where an opium addicted poet moves in next door to the three attractive daughters living in a Hampshire Rectory.

I decided to include a poem a few days ago when I was discussing moral judgements to be made by poets. When I discovered how many days I have missed posting recently, I decided it was definitely time, as republishing poetry is quick and easy.. I don’t think I’ve posted this one before. If I have, my apologies.

One major change has taken place since this poem was written – 18 carat gold was £38 per gram in 2023 when this was written. It’s now £72. At peak it was about £96. That’s the effect of wars, disturbed markets and political panic.

My contribution to the discussion was to say that I didn’t think it was my job to make decisions based on my perception of morality. I was then asked whether or not I made a moral judgement every time I wrote a poem.

I’m fairly sure that I don’t. This one is just a description of one line on the official documentation relating to the valuation of my father’s estate, with a couple of bits of trivia relating to death. Maybe I should. But to be honest, I have enough trouble wrestling words into a poem, without debating the rights and wrongs of it. I’m just shallow. I could, of course, write a second poem based on this one and the new price of gold, but I’m not sure the world needs another poem about war and capitalism.

That of course, was just one of the questions surrounding poetry and morals. Two others are about the morality of supporting right-wing magazines by submitting (it’s always the right-wing that gets questioned, isn’t it?), and I asked about the morality of reading poems by poets with questionable moral stances.

I will leave it there, as it has the potential to develop in a way that is neither useful or interesting. I’m off to read some poetry. Now, should I try the racist Larkin, the incestuous Byron or the fascist Pound? Even Dylan Thomas was overly fond of the bottle and committed a number of crimes against neckwear. Morals can be so confusing.

Does anyone have a view?

On Dunwich beach

 

Weighed in the Balance

The Egyptians believed that Anubis would weigh the heart of the deceased against a feather to see if they were worthy of the afterlife. Later, scientists calculated that the human soul weighed 21 grams.

This morning, preparing the paperwork for my late father’s estate, my heart skipped a beat as I saw the details of his life reduced to a weight – 8 grams of 18 carat gold at £38 a gram. That is the price set on his wedding ring, the value that the tax man places on 63 years of marriage.

his life
persists in memory
dust floats in the sun

First published in Blithe Spirit August 2023.

Ringlet

Coshed With a Lexicon

Sorry everybody, we’ve had visitors over the weekend, and added to the heat I’ve not been working very hard. I also had portions of four days last week in the hands of the medical profession. One of them only involved waiting for a parcel of injectable methotrexate, but it all adds to the disruption and lack of concentration.

Then there is the fact that I have become accustomed to idling my days away as two oscillating fans do their best to make my day bearable.

 

It is with considerable horror that I realise it has been six days since I last posted. In that time I have taken delivery of an order of injector pens, looked up possible side effects (I had, I admit, too much time on my hands) ,had a blood test and been comprehensively prodded by doctors. On one day I was forced to sit in a small Perspex cage breathing into a tube. Fortunately they had fans around the room and I was able to avoid melting. The technician working the device said I was lucky to be in at 9.45, as it got considerably hotter by mid-day.

One of the side effects of the methotrexate, by the way, is hair loss. This one, I confess, does not worry me. Drowsiness is no real problem either. I like a nap. My liver disintegrating (I may be exaggerating here, they may have used some weasel words like “Functionally impaired”) does concern me a bit but I have quarterly blood test to check on that. I only take it for arthritis, if I was taking it in the dose necessary for chemotherapy I imagine I would be less inclined to make light of the problems. It can also cause memory impairment (“chemo fog”) and . . . well, to be honest I can’t remember the rest . . .

Sorry, couldn’t resist

Although it’s true, I do have difficulty with this sort of thing.  Some of the words are very long and barely comprehensible. Sometimes it’s like being hit repeatedly with a dictionary, or a sock full of billiard balls.

I keep meaning to take better care of myself, but it can be difficult when you don’t know what the words mean.

The good news is that I passed the blood test. The respiratory test showed decent results. Not good, but a lot better than I feared. Once the results are with the doctor, we will see what happens. Probably not a lot.

Little Egret – Blacktoft Sands

Hot!

It’s hot by English standards, though I’m sure it’s just pleasantly warm by the standards of many other nations. Fresh from re-evaluating my ambitions to live in New Mexico (due to my growing concerns about the USA), I’m also rethinking the one about moving to Australia. Even in an air-conditioned bubble or a repurposed opal mine, I’m thinking it may be a bit hot for me.

Poppies growing from cracks in concrete

Other parts of the country are either hotter or cooler. Look at Derrick’s blog or Tootlepedal’s. They, I think, represent the two extremes today. Oh dear, I just looked at TP’s blog – he is in hospital after Mountain Rescue had to bring him down after a knee injury.

Not that it’s all bad news, I must “avoid strenuous activity during the hottest part of the day” according to official advice, (I am dedicated to taking that advice), and keep the house cool, whilst drinking plenty of fluids. It’s a good thing we have government to look after us, as I wouldn’t have thought about any of that by myself They also advise people not to leave babies, pets and old people alone in parked cars. Since when have I been reduced to the level of a child or pet?

I’ve actually spent most of the day wondering about one of the great philosophical questions of our times – how does Bradley Walsh get work as an actor? He’s a lovely bloke, I’m sure, and a great question master on The Chase and irs spin-offs. He’s done a number of high-profile roles in Coronation Street and Dr Who and today I’ve been watching him in Law and Order UK.

Poppies with a bee

It’s an adaptation of the American series. It’s OK, but a bit like the Toronto version it doesn’t sparkle quite so much once it’s taken out of its natural habitat, and, as I say, Bradley Walsh in a lead role isn’t quite doing it for me.

That was my day during the Big Heat. My blood test was done quickly today and I am back in the correct range after a dramatic rise caused by the anti-biotics of a few weeks ago. The TESCO checkout broke last night. I always suspect hot weather, though it may be foreign hackers or just inefficiency. They have made a few changes recently, which is never good news. At the moment we are being warned that there might not be enough electricity – high demand for powering fans linked to low levels of wind for the windmills. If we asked President Trump for his opinion on windmills he would generate the extra wind we need. Meanwhile, keep on with building devices to use wave energy. We have plenty of waves.

Poppies in wheat field

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Bad Habits of Old People

Last night I started a counter-revolution. I deliberately went out to write a long poem and submitted a tanka prose with 289 words of prose. Can you believe it? What would be considered a short WP post may not be selected, I’m told, because of the allocation of space. For some reason 300 words is now a barrier. Isn’t life strange?

My Orange Parker Pen

An old man complains about trends in modern poetry and cuts it short at sixty words. What happened to the old man who used to complain at length about anything and everything? Beaten down by life. I’ve been reading about bad habits old people have. So I’m not going to bang on about it.  It’s another example of modern life being shoddy and young know-it-alls giving us their worthless views whilst drinking chai lattes and scrolling their phone as the walk along the pavement inconveniencing all the other pedestrians.

However, I do have one good habit, although I may mention my knees and hands from time to time I generally don’t discuss my health too much. It is, to be fair, not that I have a good habit, just that I don’t think my internals are any business of strangers.

Refusing to embrace new things is another fault of old people. Failure to embrace new ways for fraudsters to get into your bank account? New ways for companies to make you do more of the work yourself (probably using an “app”) whilst charging more for doing less?

Poetry – creatively stacked but a touch light on stock

If the future was robot butlers and time machines I’d give it a go, but fraudsters and parasites? No thanks.

I mention robot butlers a lot. I should find something new, as repeating yourself is a sign of being boring and old. Having said that, I was boring when I was young, so it’s just a bad habit, rather than being age related.

If only I could call for Robo Lugg to bring me tea and dainty sandwiches. If not Lugg, who is your favourite fictional butler. I don’t think I’ve ever met a real butler. Come to think of it, Lugg isn’t a butler, he’s a gentleman’s gentleman. It’s close enough for my purposes.

 

 

More From My Extensive Stock of Ramblings

If you want to write, you must read. This is common advice and quite easy to follow when you have a half-formed ambition to write mystery novels. Reading a mystery novel is generally a delight, although the pleasure is somewhat diminished by the lack of editorial discipline revealed now that self-publishing is so easy.

Yes, I read a lot of low-brow books…

I don’t find reading poetry quite so easy. I lack the attention span, or boredom threshold, and the intellectual capacity to process it in a scholarly way. A book of poetry soon blurs, merges and becomes dull.  It becomes an exercise in tenacity. But to read it slowly and apply thought to each individual poem soon exhausts my mental capabilities.

That’s what put me off poetry in the first place, and all English literature, to be honest. I don’t want to read a book of techniques and allegory and cleverness and concealed meaning. I want a book where good triumphs over evil and where you can be sure that after the hero throws the bad man off a cliff he will go home and live happily until he has to throw another dastardly villain from a cliff/into quicksand/out of an aircraft. Some deviation is acceptable with a touch of angst and a little regret and even the possibility of ambiguity.  In general, I read novels because I like a puzzle and I like to see good triumph over evil.

It’s the same with poetry. I read Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night, because I want to rave at close of day, and catch the sun in flight and because I know it’s all slipping away from me.  Not because I want to admire his use of repetition. I’ve actually just read a couple of articles on the poem. I suspect the first two were done by AI as they mentioned repetition, but managed to get all the way through without mentioning the word villanelle, which is one of the most notable aspects of the poem. Thomas didn’t get up one morning and say to himself, I think I might write a poem with some repetition in it. He got up, probably with a hangover, and decided to write a villanelle.  I’ve written two. They are not for the faint hearted. I fully intend writing a third, but I’m resting and gathering my strength for what is more like a full frontal assault on the English language than the writing of a poem. One definition of poetry is putting the best words in the best places, in a villanelle you have to select the best words to be put in several places, which have already been selected by the history of the form. They have to make sense and the repetitions have to contribute to the poem and, if you are really good they have to be capable of subtle changes.

Not the Library of an Intellectual

Of course, as poems go, it is much enhanced by a good reader. This is Dylan Thomas having a crack at it.  He’s no Michael Sheen, but to be fair, Michael Sheen is no Dylan Thomas when it comes to writing poetry.

Today I finished off Quantum of Menace, which is an excellent book, though the ending felt a bit rushed. It needed a few more baddies to meet a sticky end, but I suppose Q doesn’t do that sort of thing. It’s by Vaseem Khan – writer of The Unexpected Inheritance of Inspector Chopra and the Malabar House Series. In Quantum of Menace, Q, who has been made redundant, from MI6 becomes the lead character. That in itself is difficult, but Khan’s Q fits right in with what I would have expected. He also avoids that trap that Richard Osman, I’m afraid, fell right into with his Thursday Murder Club books. Just because you have an ex-spy as a character doesn’t mean they can be used to answer loads of difficult questions. Omnipotence  may come easy for the host of a quiz show but it doesn’t really work in a whodunnit.

Ring-Necked Parakeet

I also watched Chris Packham’s documentary on Ring-Necked parakeets. Ironically, after him saying that we needed more facts and fewer opinions, he seemed to be short of facts and plentifully supplied with opinions of his own. It did feature a scientist who had eaten both pigeon and parakeet to see why urban Peregrines seem so partial to parakeets (100 taken in a month by just one London pair with chicks). She said that parakeet tastes better than pigeon. Frankly, unless we can tell how a Peregrine views palatability, I’m not sure this is science. However, she also said that in the month after fledging she believes that young parakeets are easier to catch than pigeons. Being bright green I imagine they are easier to spot too.

Little Owl in its nest

Anyway, that will probably do for now. I will now find some photos and get on with posting. Parakeet and Little Owl photos are from Wikipedia.

 

 

 

The Seed of an Idea

Yesterday I switched WP on to find that my Comments screen was subtly different. Not better, not more efficient, not easier to use/read, just different. It is rather like one of those 1950s black and white films where the group of beleaguered actors hear war drums in the distance, or see smoke signals in the sky. You know that things are going to become worse before they got better. At least they did generally get better in the films, there is no such guarantee in modern technical matters.

Summer Pudding

I also blogged a little and, having had a bad night, slept. Mostly I slept, watched TV and read  crime fiction. Having had a slow start I decided to call it a day of relaxation. I did that to differentiate it from all the other days where I slept and watched TV but didn’t give the day a name. My sister called and went shopping with Julia. We had pasta bake garlic bread and summer pudding  in the evening, followed (in my case at least) by a game of “Hunt the Seeds” There were a lot of seeds in the summer pudding but I think I may . . .

No,  a last minute prod with a toothpick/flosser has just brought more to light, despite  two sessions with an electric toothbrush and a previous attempt to floss.

There are two ways I could see this. One would be to discuss age, teeth and the nature of summer pudding. This could go the gastronomy route, the philosophy route or the moaning old man route.

Summer pudding after the first slice

Or I could develop a whole new technology based on the ability of seeds to conceal themselves in dental gaps. I’m not clear how I could harness this property of seeds (super-concealability, I’m thinking of calling it) but I’m thinking if you had the right set of teeth you could conceal a lot of small things. It may have implications for future computer design or AI. Or it may just be a way to set up a joke about the consciences of politicians or the brains of influencers.

Today, the comments screen seems to have returned to normal, leading me to think that there are changes afoot, or that I dreamed the whole thing. Which, I wonder, is the most likely?

I’m going now. I may be back later.

A slice of Summer Pudding

Have you spotted the photographic theme yet?

 

 

Tales of a Small Rabbit

I’ve not quite made up my mind about my new blogging routine, but I am going to keep to the one a day (on average) plan until the end of the month. I’m thinking I may drop back to a couple of times a week after that. Half of me says that there is no need to change, as 250 words a day shouldn’t be a challenge. The other half of me says that practising longer pieces will be good for me and I should give it a go.

Whatever happens, I do know that I had a rejection yesterday. Rattle magazine runs a monthly ekphrastic poetry competition, amongst other things. It’s a good way of getting my submission numbers up, and giving myself a new challenge. So far, it’s also been a useful lesson in rejection, with me achieving a perfect record of three rejections in three attempts. I don’t mind these rejections, because they reject the poems because they aren’t good enough. Yes, I’m still banging on about editors who reject decent poems because they don’t match up to some wrong-headed vision of what a poem should be.

I will not go further along that line as it’s difficult to explain without becoming tedious. I’m thinking about this more and more because it’s coming up to the time when I will have to select a poem for a best of issue tanka, and I’m still not sure how to do it. I think I’ll just select the one I like the most and be honest about it. I’ll leave scholarly comment to other people.

Meanwhile, I just had two acceptances to balance up the rejection, and we had the woodpecker back on the feeders this morning. We have also got a small rabbit in the back garden. We aren’t sure how it got in, but are hoping it will be able to get out the same way as I wouldn’t want to see it trapped. It seems to have burrowed into the compost bin in search of vegetable scraps, but am not sure there is enough food in the garden to support even a small rabbit. The photo isn’t good, but it was done on a phone and enlarged without mercy.

It’s been a good time for wildlife – all the fledglings, the woodpeckers, a rabbit, a sparrow and the return of the goldfinches.