I apologise if I sometimes become guarded in my medical descriptions, but I’m trying to walk the line between humour, good taste and the provision of too much information. For the purposes of this post I will merely tell you that the cheery, though thoughtful tone did not endure. It gradually became clear that all was not well and I was close to being in the same state as I was six months ago. Including the feeling of panic. For several hours I fell into deep depression, then I began to plan what I must do in the morning.
But first, there was one thing I could do for myself before throwing myself on the mercy of the NHS. They had sent me home with a box of catheters and I have experience of rodding out the household drains. These two things, plus a fair helping of desperation, provided me with an answer. To say more would be to cross a boundary that does not need crossing.
However, I sit here a happier and a calmer man. And emptier.
The Lake at Clumber Park
Everything that needs to flow freely is doing so (too freely in fact, as I was up almost hourly during the night), the sun is shining, the birds are singing and I am facing the future with what will probably be revealed to be unrealistic optimism.
I am now going to spend a few moments reflecting on the advantages of catheters and the six hours uninterrupted sleep provided by use of a night bag. It comes to something when you view a time of intrusive plastic pipes as being “the good old days”. I did briefly consider a bit of DIY, as the lure of six hours uninterrupted sleep is hard to resist.
However, Julia has banned me from browsing eBay. She was alerted to my searching activities when I called her across to see a lovely secondhand leather overnight bag. Having seen some of the other results, she has put her foot down and told me I must put up with a lifetime of broken sleep.
More photos of water today.
Reflections
All so intolerable
It will come right. 🙂
Sorry that you’ve got these frustrations. To be honest, an overnight bag sounds a good idea.
🙂 I should keep one permanently packed – slippers, dressing gown, books. 🙂 How are you keeping?
I’ve no idea how to send a reply anymore, so you could receive two others from me or none! Anyway, thank you for asking. If I can sort out making my posts public again, I might restart my blog 😊
No, just the one reply. Yes, it would be nice to know what you are up to. 🙂
That’s good re number of replies. I must make my blog for public viewing again – it’s not much fun essentially blogging to myself… The garden’s overgrown and will be sorted (a bit) when there is less grass seed flying round in the air! I hope you are feeling better?
Gardens can always be sorted. 🙂
Same goes for elderly men with unmentionable problems. I am healing a little each day.
Yes, there is something to be said for blogging and chatting to people compared to merely writing secret diary.
Nice to see you back for a while. I have just been looking at he Saltaire pictures again – always a pleasure to look at. I’ve just been looking into some family history. My great-great grandfather rates several mentions in the Cotton Factory Times for his work in the Clitheroe Division of the Labour Representation Association. I know it’s cotton, not wool, and spinning not weaving, but it’s all textiles. 🙂
Indeed! I have now bought a loom, though weaving is not so much fun as spinning.
Nice to learn about your past family. Glad you are healing.
Weaving always looks so complicated, and so much setting up. Good luck.
Thank you! The setting up
is a challenge but once the warp is on the loom, the cloth is half made.
🙂 I’ll take your word for it.
Life must be more than a little frustrating for you at the moment so it is lucky that you are married to a woman who can keep you on the strait and narrow path of righteousness (and off E-Bay).
Well done for the home plumbing skills.
That’s roughly what she said earlier today. She was, I admit, slightly blunter.
That scene from The Lake at Clumber Park photo is a particularly beautiful one, a nice one to contemplate.
You are avoiding drinking a lot of water, tea or other diuretic beverages before bedtime?
Over the years I’ve had to monitor all sorts of things with liquid input and output. The current state of my tubing has more effect than liquid intake. Having had several worries about stones I like to keep fully hydrated.
I must admit that I laughed a bit. I am sorry but the tone you set was good. Take care
🙂 Thank you.