Monthly Archives: February 2024

Short Break

I’m afraid I’m going to have to have a short break from WP. Even typing a small amount is a bit of a strain at the moment, with my hands being less than 100%. I’m also a little concerned that part of the problem is RSI from poor posture when I type at home and at work, as I’m alos getting pains running up my forearms. This has happened before and I should have been taking better care of myself.  I’ve tried various combinations of rest and heat and painkillers and the pills and rest seems to be the best option.

I’m not ignoring you, and I’m not having a serious problem, it’s just that if rest provides the best hope I am going to have to rest.

If I don’t start to improve by the weekend I will ring the specialist and see if they can come up with anything.

Blossom at Wilford

In the meantime I will save my typing efforts to send off this month’s submissions, which haven’t gone yet. They are ready (near enough, anyway) but it’s a matter of concentration as the arthritis is taking too much of my thinking time.

With one thing and another, it’s time to get a grasp of my health. There is no point being retired if all I’m going to do is fester in front of the TV. I’m not going to make any sudden changes (my paternal grandfather, for instance, stopped smoking at 85 and died at 86, which has always struck me as ironic) but a little less food and a little more exercise, even a touch of fish and a suspicion of salad, might be called for here.

Like my pension arrangements, I really should have done something about this 50 years ago. Hindsight – a precise science.

However, for now I will confine myself to resting my arms and seeing how that goes. I am intending to confine my exercise tomorrow to lifting cups of tea and take it from there . . .

Daffodils

More Ups and Downs

The rate of improvement in my hands has slowed down today – one is almost cured but the other is still hanging on. Tonight is my night for more anti-arthritis drugs so I’m hoping this will help. If not I may hve to ring the specialist next week and see if they can help.

On the poetry front I had another rejection today, but it was from someone I expected to reject it, so it wasn’t a surprise. I am going to mount a concentrated effort to wear him down over the next year.

The shop was quiet all morning, then picked up for the last hour. In the end it was a successful week, but it can be quite wearing on the nerves to wait until the last hour of the last day of the week to achieve this. Someone rang and made an appointment for next week, telling me that he’d avoided Saturday as we were probably too busy. I laughed.

Yes, I read a lot of low-brow books…

As a result of today’s refusal, I now have three more haibun to send out. I will prod them round a bit to (possibly) improve them and that means I don’t need to write anything else to make this month’s submissions.

I’m feeling a bit like our garden plum tree this month. If you don’t prune properly and thin out the fruit you end up with a tree that only fruits in alternate years, known as a biennial bearer. I’m much the same. I submitted so much last month that I don’t feel like writing at the moment. It’s a pattern I need to address. Part of it is down to my hands, but a lot of it is due to the amount I submitted last month.

This month’s submissions are now all taken care of and I need to start on the poems for March. It’s a reasonably light month, as is April so I’m hoping to relax a bit and build up a depth of material. At one time I was organised enough to send my submissions in the first few days of the month, instead of the last few. The disadvantage is that you wait longer for a reply, but the advantage is that you are generally more relaxed and make better quality submissions.

Soon we will have a new garden

 

Cash and Casseroles

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com

Sounds like a Jane Austen novel from the title, doesn’t it? All I can say is, don’t raise your hopes.

The good news is that my hand is feeling better each day. The bad news is that it slips back a bit as the day progresses and it is a long way from being cured.

The afternoon is progressing, and I’m not getting far with my cooking plans. I haven’t been able to do much this week so really should cook while I’m not feeling too bad. I’m thinking of bean casserole, though not with much enthusiasm. Rice and Something is a likely choice, though I’m not clear over the Something. It might be hot dog sausages – it’s not haute cuisine, but it’s what we have.  They were on special offer just before Christmas and seemed like a good idea.

Meanwhile I am all out of inspiration for my writing too.

You can probably tell.

Banknotes of Sudan

However, I will resist the temptation to moan. I’ve done enough of that already. I’d better get cooking. After that a fire and the TV calls. I will selflessly watch poor quality TV with the fire on so that Julia can walk into a warm house. I am so considerate I am surprised they haven’t put up a statue in my honour.

I had a letter when I arrived home. It was a big brown letter of the type the NHS loves to write. I was expecting trouble, but instead it is a letter confirming that my State pension will start in May. That is good news.It’s about 75 days until I retire, of which only about 35 are actual working days. I wasn’t particularly keen on retiring, but now I have decided, the sooner the better.

Roll on Summer, a life of leisure and the next chapter of the Quercus Story.

The new banknotes, with the King Charles portrait, will be released on 5th June. This means I will be retired when it happens and won’t need to talk about them endlessly with people in the shop.

Banknotes of Ghana

 

 

Another Quick Note

Valentine’s Day on the Farm

My hands feel a lot better. However, they still aren’t great and I am having to be careful not to knock the right hand or try to do too much with it.

I went for a blood test this morning, which went well. I then picked up something for Julia, which also went well. It’s nice to feel useful, and it’s not a feeling I often have any  more.

Back home, I rand Urology, using the number that came with one of the recent letters. I got through quite quickly. They don’t seem to have had the letter I sent (though I’m suspicious of this) and they tel;l me they only have a record of one letter being sent. As I was told yesterday, I have an appointment at the end of April. They acknowledge there were two letter and I was given the wrong information, but this doesn’t mean they will bring the date forward. I will just have to stay lucky and/or hope for a cancellation.

I am now going to make notes and send letters off again. One will be to the Urology address given on the letter (which is very like the one I used before) and the second will be via email to the people who deal with complaints. I don’t like making official complaints but they messed up and as a result my consultation is put off for three months. I don’t think it’s a fair way to treat patients. I also think their contact procedures need altering to make it easier to make contact.

Bread

To be fair, they picked up the phone quite quickly at the Urology Department and did seem to listen, even if they couldn’t do anything.

However, when you look up the consultant in charge of the team, their online presence is almost entirely about their private practice. I have a feeling the NHS, and patients who hve to be seen for free, don’t form a large part of his professional life.  That has always been one of the problems with the NHS.

Then I went back to the surgery to see a doctor. This appointment was to discuss blood test results. It was, as usual, inconclusive, and they will test again in three months.

Soup maker with rammed earth wall in the background – oh happy days!

We have a thing at the shop where customers, and my workmate, query why seemingly identical items are priced differently. My reply – pricing is an art and not a science and there is no reason for prices to be identical. We aren’t buying stuff from wholesalers and we aren’t selling items with a recommended retail price or closely competing rival (like supermarkets). Our price  will vary according to what we paid, what we think the market price is, and even what the weather is like.

I imagine that diagnosis is very much like that, and sometimes only a second test will show the pattern which unlocks the answer. Patience, weight loss and leafy green vegetables should do the trick. Of course, lots of leafy green vegetables will also play havoc with my Warfarin – nothing is ever simple.

Sheepdog in training

The pictures are from February 2016 and have nothing to do with Urology or the NHS.

 

Quick Note

Just a quick note. I will reply to comments soon, but for now I’m having to rest my hands. Even clicking a mouse button is currently a bit sore. I can use a different finger to do it but operating a mouse with different fingers or with two hands causes extra complications.

The same goes for typing – even using different fingers imposes strain on the sore joints. Last night I used a hot wter bottle but I’m not sure it helped. Today at work has been a bit of a trial, though arthritis was only part of that, and not necessarily the worst part.

On the plus side of the leger, I have had another acceptance, which ws for a tanka prose I ws quite pleased with. That’s often the kiss of death as editors quite often reject poems I am pleased with.

Aren’t you pleased with them all? I hear you ask. In truth – no. There is usual one in three that is just there to make up the numbers and  the other two are often OK, but don’t really excite me once they are done.

If you wanted me to sort out poems I am really happy with, I expect that out of the roughly 150 I have had published, less than 15 would be ones I was really happy with.

I suppose that’s always going to be the way of things – we are always fated to want to do better.

I will stop here. My clumsy fingers just wiped out all my words and I had to search drafts to find it again. It happens infrequently and I can never remember how to do it. Fortunately I was able to find it. This was very dis-spiriting.

 

 

Words Fail Me

It’s Monday, I’m sitting at the computer, and my fingers are feeling a lot better than they did last night. I really am going to have to sort out my pill taking practices. Unfortunately the first knuckle of my right hand is still sore and is making it difficult to use the entire hand, including holding a pen. These things are sent to try us.

Duck – Arnot Hill Park

I’ve just completed my State Pension application form online. I don’t generally like official forms, but this one was quite simple and is intended to give me money. I could get used to this.  Normally they are a bit trickier and are aimed at costing me money.

Meanwhile I am starting to worry that the telephone consultation I had booked for 10.45 has gone astray. It’s over two hours late and though it’s not unknown for them to be late, I am less confident in the system than I used to be after what happened with my last telephone consultation.

Sadly, the Pension Application is the only writing I’ve done. Apart from making an omelette and a cup of tea it’s also the only work I’ve actually done. I had intended that today would be a day of industry. How many times have you herd that?

Fox – Arnot Hill

I just tried to ring the surgery to check about the appointment. The phone isn’t connecting and, at the moment it is also refusing to shut down. This is the second time it has done this to me and I am not happy. While it is trying to shut itself off (how difficult can that be?) nobody can get through.  In the days of simple phones this never happened.

I’ve now been waiting nine minutes to get through to the surgery and have had to listen to their recorded message about the new contact system starting in March. Apparently it will be quicker and more efficient to make contact via an online form. This will be reviewed by “triage practitioners” . This means that either the NHS has recruited a whole new level of specialist staff or they have given the receptionists a new job title. Guess which I feel is most likely.

I don’t suppose it will be a surprise to find out that I’m not keen on modern technology.

After 18 minutes I have progressed from number 7 to number 21 in the queue!

Sculptures at Arnot Hill

Back to Blogging

Sorry about the erratic service. I’ve been very tired and disorganised and my hands have been very sore. I’m not sure what happened – I was recovering from the arthritis flare-up when it suddenly became worse. It wasn’t particularly painful  but my knuckles felt very tender and I had no strength in my hands for simple jobs like tucking my shirt in or using a fountain pen. Even now it’s a bit tricky pressing on the mouse button and I only have three capable of pressing down a key on the keyboard. Fortunately I don’t need many as I am generally a two-fingered typist anyway.

I have discovered why some of my eBay photos do not allow me to edit them properly. It seems to depend on the camera settings I use. My Panasonic, despite being old and slightly faulty (some of the pixels are missing from the screen) continues to be better than the pink party camera foisted on me by the shop owner. It has better battery life and close-up focus abilities so I carry on using it. For some reason it will no longer let me crop images properly. I don’t know why, but I have tested it on some other settings and can now crop properly.

Even if other things hadn’t intervened, I think I would be ready for retirement soon. It’s very wearing having to go to work and use a dreadful pink camera and a computer that won’t switch on properly and which works very, very slowly . . .

My cheap laptop and ten-year-old Lumix actually do a better job. Having worn out two cameras in the last six years I am becoming quite resentful that I am not provided with proper equipment to do the job. It will be quite relaxing to retire.

Photographs are from Julia’s recent excursions.

An Almost Perfect Day

Aconites are out

It was Valentine’s day yesterday. After 34 years of marriage the romantic gloss may have worn a little thin (I will be waiting a week until prices go down before I buy flowers, for instance) but I always spend the day reflecting on how lucky I am.

When that day is Wednesday, it’s even better, because we get to spend the day together. Well, apart from the times I was napping or reading, and the times she nipped out to the shops and did a few household things,. Not actually sure what the things were, but they were noisy and I know better than to complain that it’s difficult to concentrate on reading with her making all that noise. It only leads to discussions comparing our relative contributions in the field of housework. Mine are, to be honest, negligeable, which is why I tend towards silence.

We had our traditional Valentine’s day meal – steak, oven chips, onion rings, mushrooms and grilled tomatoes. We also had pepper sauce and sweetcorn – o0ne because I was tempted whilst ordering the groceries and the other because we had half a tin left in the fridge from the weekend’s fried rice.

As are the snowdrops

Julia cooked, because she does steak better than I do. It’s edible when I do it, but the smell of burning fat does tend to fill the house. That’s why I do a lot of casseroles and roasting. I am not really to be trusted with a frying pan.

Having said that, I did produce some fine pancakes on Tuesday. They arrived in a packet and just needed heating. I used a couple of dry frying pans for that and soon had two plates of pancakes ready with maple syrup and lemon juice. We have maple syrup available as Julia uses it in making one of her array of exotic vegetarian recipes. I prefer Golden Syrup but it tends to lead to stickiness and weight gain due to my childlike love of syrup sandwiches. I really should learn to have pancakes with lemon and ditch all the liquid sugar, but it’s just too tempting.

Cormorant on the duck pond

Meanwhile there were several romantic films on TV, including something new by the BBC, Lady Chatterley’s Lover (if adultery is actually romantic), Notting Hill and, on one of the later channels, Naked Attraction. It’s an odd mix, and one that will provide plenty of material for future academics.

I have linked to Naked Attraction because some of my readers may not be familiar with it. You are to be congratulated on this as it is, along with ll forms of reality TV and “scripted reality”, “the museum of social decay”, as Gary Oldman says.

It’s always difficult knowing where to post links. I have the same problem with footnotes in poetry. They are quite popular in Haibun, but I always worry about them. Do I appear condescending if I add a note? Do I appear “difficult” if I don’t?

However, it’s a good thing I did look up Gary Oldman, because I actually wrote “Gary Olsen” first, He was a great actor but he didn’t say anything about reality TV.

The Pond at Arnot Hill Park, Arnold, Notts

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Good Day in which Bad Things Happened

 

Crocus at Nottingham

Now, where was I?  I’ve had a message from NHS on my phone telling me that I have  new appointment with Urology for the end of April and can expect a letter shortly. I’ve had a letter, which tells me something completely different and which answers none of the questions I asked have been answered but there are a few phrases thrown in which appear to be fudging round the issue. I would say, looking at it, that they have had the letter, decided not to treat it seriously, throw in a few phrases like “administrative error” (without actually admitting one).

The letter, which arrived next day, tells me I must ring them to arrange a further appointment or they will remove me from the list.

It appears that the letter mentioned in the phone message is not the one that arrived. So yet again, I have two contradictory letters. Fortunately, though uncomfortable, I am not in poor health as a result. However, if this carries on much longer I might be.

Daffodils

I’ve also had two other phone calls. One told me that a recent urine sample shows signs of an infection and in view of my recent medical history I should probably have antibiotics. That might explain why I have been feeling under the weather recently, but apart from that vague feeling I have had no sign of illness. The other wanted me to make an appointment for a face to face discussion of my recent blood tests. This is driving Julia mad, as she suspects it means something bad is about to happen.

I assume that if something bad was about to happen they wouldn’t leave it for two weeks. However, I won’t make too many predictions because if it does turn out to be bad I don’t want to look like an idiot.

Tulips

Despite all this, the actual big news of the day is a rejection. It’s probably  good thing, as it has given me something to moan about instead of the NHS. It was a submission I nearly didn’t make at the end of last month. It features a guest editor, a submission limit of three tanka (rather than the usual 10), and a theme.

I have not had a lot of luck with guest editors over the years, though there is no sensible reason why they should be more difficult to satisfy than regular editors. Three poems, which is a standard number for anthologies and competitions, always seems to give you a lower chance of acceptance than magazines allowing ten, though again, if they are good enough, one would be plenty. And finally, the theme. I hate themes and often avoid submitting when they are required. I write poems. Themes are more like writing exercises.

Early irises at Harlow Carr

It’s always annoying to get a rejection, particularly in the middle of a good run, but these things happen. It’s also annoying to get rejected when I didn’t hold out high hopes in the first place. It is too easy, as I used to do as a beginner, to blame circumstances and develop a myth about certain things. There is no reason why a guest editor should be difficult, or why just submitting three should reduce my chances of acceptance.

The prejudice against themes, I will retain. They are fair enough in anthologies but I see little use for them in other publications.

It’s tempting to go off on a rant about other things i don’t like in making submissions, but I will resist the temptation. If poems are good enough they will be accepted.

Celandines

However, as I was told today, acceptance is subjective and another editor may have made a different choice. That’s meant to be encouraging, and implies that my submission is good enough to be selected by a different editor. Unfortunately, read another way, it implies that no matter how brilliant the poem, the spectre of rejection is always there if an editor take as against it.

The day, despite the NHS and rejection, was excellent, but that will have to wait for another post, as this is heading for 700 words and I need to get to bed.

The pictures will be spring flowers from various years. The crocuses, and even a few daffodils are appearing and this is one of my favourite times of year.

Japanese Quince – Arnot Hill Park

Snowdrop Photos and Complaints

Sorry, I’ve had an erratic few days and blogging seems to have suffered. My fingers are still a bit stiff, my Kindle is full, and I’m not well organised. There are many reasons for irregular blogging, and those are just a few of them.

I had an electronic communication from the hospital today. The replacement appointment for the one they failed to complete is in late April. I’m going to be writing again, as they seem to have ignored my other questions. It will be six months after my initial problem that I get seen. I’m not happy about that. I’m even less happy that they haven’t answered my queries. However, I now have some more details to work with and am going to write again.

The photos are from  atrip Julia and my sister made to Holme Pierrepont to look at snowdrops. I suppose this is the English equivalent of the Japanese looking a cherry blossom. I didn’t go because I’m anti-social, not able to walk well enough or afraid of germs. Or all three.  To be honest, after contracting whooping cough (and the associated other problems) at Christmas and spending a lot of time coughing, gasping and gurgling, I don’t want to put myself in the position of breathing in more germs. Walking round some woodland with a crowd of snowdrop watchers is just too many people for me.

Work again tomorrow, followed by a day off on Wednesday. I really could get used to being retired. Julia has always said that with my laid back approach to labour I would probably find it difficult to notice the difference between work and retirement. Wives can be quite cutting at times.