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Good News

 

Inside the car, looking out.

The owner of the shop worked at the desk next to me today. Under the new reduced hours there are only two of us in the shop at any time. He mentioned it was cold.

“Yes,” I said from inside my cocoon of fleece jacket, pullover, shirt, thermal vest and vest. “It is isn’t it.”

“That,” he said, “will be because we only have heaters in the other two rooms.”

“Yes,” I said, pulling my woolly hat further down on my head. “That would be correct.”

We have heaters in the front room and the back room – the two he tends to work in. The middle room can be a bit parky, as my grandparents used to say. By the time it is time for home I often feel drained of heat, and sometimes I never warm up again in the evening. Not that I’m one to complain . . .

Sometimes the light comes straight down the road, but we are a few weeks past that time. 

The truth is that much as I like the company and the money I’m not going to miss work as much as I feared I might. Next year when I’m sat in  nice warm bungalow writing poetry and planning my assault on the world of literature, I’m not going to miss work at all. I will have enough money to live on and enough is all you need. Too much just brings problems. I will also have all the human contact I need as Julia and my sister combine to boss me about and criticise my diet, dress sense and lack of activity.

One thing I definitely won’t miss is sitting in that middle room watching frost form on my thermals.

Photos are from Julia. She took them while we were on our way to work.

I like the explosion of gold but she thinks it is too much of a good thing.

Afternoon Off

There’s something beguiling about the idea of having the afternoon off while other people are still at work. However, on a grey January afternoon, the enchantment doesn’t last long. Once spring arrives I will probably feel different.

Of course, once spring arrives, I will retire, and every afternoon will be free.

Duck – Arnot Hill Park

I thought of where I could go, but so many places are now closed to me. We were unhappy with Clumber Park the last few times we visited – what seemed like deliberately poor service in the cafe several times, then a somewhat overbearing attendant (not for the first time at a National Trust property) – so after lockdown we decided not to renew. It will therefore cost me £5 to visit. It’s not really worth it for the limited use I can make out of it. Seems to me to be discriminatory – free to pedestrians and cyclists but £5 to a man with bad knees who needs to use a car. It would be £10 if Julia was with me. If we ever go again, I may make her get out and walk.

The same goes for other places – paying where car parking used to be free, and in one case, demolition of the car park to allow for the building of a new, less convenient, visitor centre. I realise that things are never really “free” but it’s discouraging when you re looking for somewhere to go. If I could still spend an hour or two walking it would be OK, but for the distance I can now do, it doesn’t seem like good value.

Mandarin Duck – Arnot Hill Park

When you also add my disinclination to mingle with people, it’s all very discouraging.

The Second Post

Yes, I admit that the cracking of the plaits suggests i should have proved it a bit longer.

The second post of the day. This is the first. I must be getting better. On the other hand, I’m not that much better as some writing and a little physical activity (very little!) has left me feeling quite tired. I have walked to the kitchen and back a couple of times, lifted a couple of cups of tea and walked round the car talking to the man who came to change my tyre.

Yes, it’s got to the stage where I can no longer change a tyre for myself. It first happened  few years ago when we were visiting the Lakes. I managed most of it, but the actual getting up off the floor was a bit tricky. Since then I have used my breakdown insurance a couple of times to have tyres changed. They don’t seem to mind, though I expect it will be reflected in the price somewhere along the line.

And then, according to WP, ten hours passed.

Julia returned in that time. We both fell asleep in front of the TV. We looked at the floods on the news and agreed it was a good thing that we lived on a hill rather than the side of the Trent.  Generally speaking it was a dress rehearsal for retirement. I’m sure I could get used to this.

Unfortunately it was spoilt by my lack of energy. She has looked after me all through the holidays as I have lain there like a beached whale, and she hasn’t had a lot of rest. Despite my good intentions today, I was unable to do anything useful in the kitchen and I am now feeling guilty. I really must look at some recipes and try to do some cooking tomorrow, even if it is just vegetable stew.

I could even use some of the veg to make a hash tomorrow night, have the others as stew on Wednesday night and then make soup from anything that remains.

Is this what old age is – an inability to change your own tyres and the need to plan in advance for a simple stew?

Photographs of bread are offered as proof that (I was once able to cook after a fashion.

End of an Era

Last night, when I went to bed I took enough pills to rattle and enough spray to inflate a medium sized party balloon, I coughed and spluttered my way through the night, but at a much reduced level compared to many of my recent nights. Julia had applied hot water bottles to the bed, my breathing was improving (though far from acceptable), I have a doctor’s note for up to two weeks and, after discussing it with Julia over Christmas, I had definitely decided that I was going to retire in May rather than keep going until November. Although that decision comes at the cost of 6 months of wages, it also allows me to take some control of the direction of my life, work towards the house move and take things a little easier.

The earthworks and that stone is all that remains of Fotheringhay Castle – birthplace of Richard III

My current working situation is that I am squeezed into a small gap in a shop with a damp problem, where I use a faulty second-hand computer and an old camera which I provide myself. I work with two people who, though pleasant enough, have a number of increasingly irritating idiosyncrasies and I am, quite honestly running out of patience. I could go on, but I won’t.

I have been worrying about the decision to go in May as, despite our recent pay cut, I had agreed to stay until November. However, things change and decisions have to alter. After the pay cut, it felt like I had a slight vestige of control and, by going in May, was still in control of my destiny (even if illness was the main driver).

The Falcon and Fetterlock that tops the church.

All that changed just after 9.00 this morning when I had a phone call from the shop owner, during which it was suggested that I might like to leave in May, due to my increasing ill health. If I do this it seems it will also allow him to change his plans for the shop. I have no doubt that concern for my health has some part in the suggestion, but, being completely honest, know that the majority of the suggestion is based on financial motives.

It’s not a big thing, but did leave me feeling a bit flat. Having lost any vestige of control over my life, I sat down, drank tea and spent twelve hours reflecting on how my life has been a complete waste and I even lost effective control over the timing of my retirement.

As I photographed the church and castle I was surrounded by the song of the grasshoppers 

I have been a great disappointment to myself over the years, and even in choosing the time of retirement, I have proved to be a failure.

However, I’ve learnt a few things in the last 66 years and will be using them to full effect as I try to fill retirement with as much as possible.

The pictures are selected from an old photo card I found filled away in a box on my desk (as I call the dining table where we haven’t dined for twenty years or more). Some I’ve used before, but I think some are new. The header picture is from one of the days the peacock from the village came to see the farm guineafowl.

Creaking gates, they tell us, hang the longest

Detail of old gate

Old gate, Northamptonshire

 

I can never resist an old gate . . .

Slow Recovery

I am experiencing a slow recovery. The cough is a lot better and the muscle pain is reducing. It’s a long way from being gone, but it’s a lot better than it was.

I stayed in bed until 3pm today and that, as it often does, made things better.

Unfortunately, it’s work again tomorrow so I can’t repeat that.

The pain increased in the afternoon, a sharp stabbing pain between the shoulders as I was stabbed in the back at work (though I didn’t realise it at the time). Apparently my co-worker  can’t come to terms with the new rota (even though it has been done for his convenience. He now wants to swap it and have all Saturdays off while get the Mondays. I don’t want the Mondays. Julia isn’t off on Mondays. Two Saturdays a month off with my wife were a bonus of the switch round. But now they have been snatched away. It’s hard to say no when the excuse is that he has to look after a sick relative.

At the moment I have other things to worry about and when all that is fixed, I have a retirement date of November to work towards so it won’t be worth worrying about.

Apart from that – nothing.

Well, mainly nothing. I seem to have written a blog and some poetry notes despite everything so it’s obviously not been an entire waste of a day.

That’s it. Time for bed. That should make 250. No, it  was 246. Now it’s 250.

RNLI Window. Cromer.

Ticking Off Another Day of Winter

Overnight, the snow disappeared, leaving only a few traces where it had been piled high. Todays twin motifs were rain and inappropriate driving techniques. I lost count of the number of people who seemed to ignore me as they turned across me or pushed in front of me. It would have been irritating on any day, but on a wet day with the faint possibility of a little remaining ice, it seemed to me like a day requiring more care rather than less. It ws much the same tonight. I can only guess that the fate of the Western world hinged on some of these people getting home, or that they are frightfully important and need that piece of road desperately.

Snowdrops at Ruddington

Alternatively I might be tempted to suggest that world is full of (Julia has suggested letting you pick your own word here as the one I wanted to use is, she feels, a little strong for family viewing).

It’s been quite  good day as Julia let me have two of my Christmas presents early. They are long-bodied, long sleeved thermal vests/T shirts. As a result there re no drafts around the middle regions and I have been nice and warm at work today despite sitting in  bit of a wind tunnel.

This is the bit I like about winter, being warm. And inside.

Grape Hyacinths

Next year I intend hibernating. I will have no job, a bungalow and the ability to shop on the internet. I can shut the door on 1st December and not go out again until April. This will also allow me to be reclusive. Warm, with an endless supply of tinned food and daytime TV and no need to talk to anyone apart from Julia – sounds good to me.

The header picture reminds me that Friday night’s frost killed the last marigold and finished the fuchsia off – now I must look forward to snowdrops and grape hyacinths.

Irises at Wilford

 

Return to the Shop

I’m going back to work on Monday. It’s a nuisance because Julia has some time off over the next two weeks and I would like to have been off with her. However, I’m better and I don’t like letting them down at work.

The last two weeks has revealed to me just how much I want to retire (the money is now the only thing that keeps me at work, other factors have taken away my enthusiasm). However, I still have twelve months to go before my planned date and though it will fly by, it seems like a long time as I look at it now.

It’s sad that it has come to this, but I suppose that’s how life is. You make plans, you change them, you make more . . .

More pressing than my motivation is the need to clear the house within the next twelve months and organise the move. I really need to get on with that. I am going to have to teach myself to throw things away. It seems easy enough but after years of being a dealer I always feel like I should be getting paid for stuff. If I throw it away I feel guilty about not recycling. If I give it to a charity shop I feel bad about not getting paid. I know this is bad, but that’s the result of years of conditioning.

Meanwhile, I still have to do something for the Numismatic Society meeting, and have eleven days to do it. It always seems to get to this stage before I actually do anything, so I’m now blaming my lack of application rather than my infection.

The paper flag below is, as you can see, of Scottish origin. This is appropriate because the Scots were the originators of paper flags and were enthusiastic sellers of them. When I have done my research I will let you know more.

1917 – Soldier and Sailor

1917 – reverse

Punishing Pizzas and Shoes with Velcro

We had pizza tonight. Mine made my eyes water. This is an anecdote that is going nowhere, but from a diary point of view I feel it deserves a mention. People debate whether or not you should have pineapple on pizza (I don’t mind it, and used to include it in the school pizza sessions), but what about chillis? I eat pizza for pleasure, and I’m not sure that I want it to become a test of fortitude. I managed to grow up without chilli and though I enjoy a curry or a touch of heat now and again, I don’t see that eating pizza in front of the TV should be transformed from a pleasure to  a penance. This is another place where the 21st century is found wanting. You can suck down as many Scovilles as you want, but please ensure there is a labelling protocol in force to prevent a repeat of tonight. A picture of three chillis isn’t going to do it. You need a label like “JULIA – DO NOT BUY THIS”, as she always forgets and I end up feeling like a victim of the riot police. She buys herself vegetarian pizza but thinks I prefer something a little less bland. That’s true. Spicier than plain vegetarian is fine, but eye-watering is a step too far.

I’m not sure how I feel about the shop at the moment. It’s boring me and annoying me in equal measure, but I’m not sure whether that is the fault of the shop or whether it’s the lure of the retirement that is in front of me, shimmering like an oasis of freedom in my near future.

I’ve been doing a calculation. If I leave next spring my combined pensions will pay me almost as much as my low-paid part-time job. It’s only 30 hours a week, but six hours a day five days a week is just enough to stop you doing anything useful. However, if I carry on for another six months and manage my money properly, I can take six months wages into retirement with me, which will be enough to pay for a good supply of books and boiled sweets and those fleece-lined shoes with Velcro fastenings, which seem to be essential wear for the elderly.

Quiche with foraged green leaves and edible flowers. For more information try this link.

 

Back to Work – Day 2 – The End of the Nightmare

We dived straight in to packing this morning and managed to get quite a bit done before the first customers arrived. They were a lot easier than yesterday’s crowd,  the emails and telephone calls were all easier too and by 3pm everything was done and the desks were clear. launched into it, saw a few customers and ended up at 3pm with a clean slate. It was nice to have  a change of pace. There will be a few things to sort out tomorrow when the  owner returns but most things are up to date.

I now have nine months before I retire. In that time I could have a baby, so it’s surely time to sort out the decluttering. We will see . . . Julia is not convinced.

Last night, as part of the retirement process, I looked into my state pension arrangements. It is not riveting stuff and only an accountant would enjoy a blog post on the subject, so I will skirt round the subject. I will get a letter in seven months time and I have to decide whether to claim my pension or defer it. You can get extra pension by deferring it, but the figures suggest that I am better just taking it as soon as possible. That, to be honest, is my view on all these matters. Being sensible and putting things off for a little long term benefit is grand if you are forty and fit. I’m sixty five and I’m fraying round the edges so priorities change.

I may defer my retirement for a few months (the extra pay will be welcome) but I will claim the pension as soon as it becomes due.

Having braved the terrors of the pensions website  last night, I am going to apply for a passport and a blue badge over the next few months. Next year I will also apply for a free bus pass. If I’m going to be old I may as well embrace it. I’ve just been looking at the bus timetables – just over three hours from Peterborough to Norwich. I can take sandwiches, stare out of the window, maybe stop off at Wisbech or Swaffham, and fully embrace my role as an elderly eccentric. If I’d known it was going to be this good I would have retired years ago.

Simon Wilson, Nottingham Poet

Simon Wilson, Elderly Eccentric

Holiday – Day 8 – Part 2 Fish & Chips Remembered

I have had two poems accepted for the next Blithe Spirit, which is good. I have broken my glasses (the second pair in two weeks), which is bad. It’s also what you expect when you buy cheap glasses from Amazon and then treat them badly. Today’s set should be repairable, if I had a screw of the correct size, but nobody ever does. I could, I suppose, take one out of another broken pair, but that relies on the screws being compatible and my eyes being good enough to get it all back together. It’s easier just to buy four new pairs for £9. And that, of course, is one of the things that defines our throwaway society.

I would say that is depressing, but it isn’t, not compared to facing up to retirement.

Julia, Sutton-on-Sea

On the way past Peterborough yesterday I went to have a look round at where we will be living after we move. I lived in the area from about 1967 to 1977 and there’s something depressing about going back. I’m not quite sure why, as it’s not a bad area and I had a happy time there. I think it’s because I feel a crushing sense of failure compared to the hopes and ambitions I had as a youth. I also remember the 20 mile walks I used to take in the countryside, and compare them to my current state. If I were to stay in Nottingham this feeling wouldn’t be the same, as I never had such high hopes.

Hake and Chips in Cromer

We will be living near a country park and preserved steam railway. I’m quite excited about the country park, even if it does mean using a mobility scooter, less excited by the steam railway. They always seem like a good idea but don’t really deliver. The Nene Valley Railway is quite a good one, and we used to go on the Thomas Specials with the kids at Christmas. This was enjoyable, but even now that they have extended the line a trip from one end to the other will take just over one and a half hours, including two breaks to let you look around the stations.  We did look at the steam railways in Norfolk while we were there (there are three) but they didn’t quite fit with what we wanted to do. I may see about this trip later in the year. Actually, when looking for a link, I find there are possibly as many as six steam railways in Norfolk, though some of them may be a bit small.

Haddock Special at the Fishpan, Scarborough

The Fish & Chip Special on the North Norfolk Railway costs £28 per person. It’s expensive for Fish & Chips but not bad value for a dining experience. Look at this – celebrity chef Tom Kerridge defending the £35 fish and chips her serves up at Harrods. The problem for me isn’t the price or the quality – it’s at Harrods after all, and you expect to overpay. For me the problem is that the bread roll and butter is £6 and that when you read the reviews the service appears to leave something to be desired at times. Also, if I’m going ti be picky, I take issue with his comments on the fish served by others – the fish served with the meals in the picture are all excellent pieces of fish. In general though, I agree with him that  top quality fish and chips sold in Harrods is worth paying extra for. Fish and Chips from our local shop is now up around £10 a portion so they are no longer a cheap meal. They are, however, usually a very good meal. Well, from the point of view of taste and enjoyment. From a health perspective they are less good.

 

Haddock Special at the Dolphin Fish Bar, Sutton on Sea